Don't want to lose you (poem)

We never use to fight
everything between us
was always alright
I miss the times
we use to share
the way you were
always there...
What happened
to those times
I wish I could
just press rewind
I don't want
to lose you as a friend
I don't want
this friendship to end

3-31-07
I wrote this when a friend and I were having a bit of a fight I guess you could say. Now to this day I'm close to saying the friendship is probably over.

She's so unusual (poem)

She's So Unusual

She's so unusual
she no longer
the same
everythings different
she has herself
to blame
she's just
not herself
in her
own world
she lives
sad and alone
she has
nothing to give
her days
have darkened
her nights
have grown cold
there's no one around
there's no one to hold
she keeps
to herself
it's better
that way
no one to bother her
that's all she'll say -

2005

This was actually used as one of my MANY chatroom names, and from that I wrote this. Perhaps just a feeling I had at the time.

Death Wish (poem)

Which way should I go?
I just don't know

Everyday I cry inside
I can no longer deny

Everyday I just cry
No longer do I want to live a lie

Death seems like an easy way out
There is no doubt

Yes, it's forever why would I care
This pain inside I can't seem to bear

I've tried so hard to be strong
bu no longer can I go on

My life is worthless, it's plain to see
I'm a failure, a mistake, a screwup, that's me

7-1-00

This is one of those that I wrote at a really bad time, and at one point in time I really did feel like this. I was tired of being here.

I go through life (poem)

I go through life
thinking you're not there

I go through life
thinking you don't care

I go through life
thinking it's not fair
this pain I can no longer bear

Yeah my life is great it's true
then why do I always feel blue

I'm now scared of what I see
this can't possibly be the real me

As I've said, everyday's the same
there will never be anyone to blame

Days go by as iff they were years
every minute I try an keep back each tear.


6-17-2000